Tuesday, January 31, 2017

A Little Venting

I do not hate my job.

This is what I am having to tell myself every morning lately before I head into work.

I love so many things about my job. I love being around kids. I love seeing them learn. I love finding resources. I love making centers.

Here's what I do not love. Skipping half my lunch because a parent has to take "just a sec" to talk to me from the window of their car. Being told to do an hour long training in my spare time. Not being able to ask for donations from parents. Having my Wi-Fi go out and the tech never stopping by. Parents who think their 5 or 6 year old is always telling them the whole truth and getting yelled at because I "let other kids bully their child." Getting told by the school district that 25 kindergarteners does not qualify as enough to get an aid. Mom helpers who say they will come to help then never show up. Being expected to do 2 hours of Language Arts instruction, 30 minutes of technology time, 30 minutes of P.E., 1 hour of math, 30 minutes of science, and 30 minutes of social studies in 2 hours and 50 minutes.

Lately I just feel like I am being asked to do more and more as a teacher and getting less and less help. No other job would require this. That's where my main frustration lies. I have 49 students who I need to get ready for first grade by May. That is the same as having 49 ongoing projects that have a definite deadline.

I'm drowning and all the lifeboats I call for aren't showing up.

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Long Distance

In the past few weeks I have seen a number of people publicize their despair over being temporarily separated from their significant other. 6 weeks or less is the amount of time I have seen. While dating and through almost our entire year long engagement Derick and I spent a maximum of 22 continual days together and a minimum of 10 weeks apart. Being apart was more a norm than being together was.
I know being away for your significant other is hard, I would never want to belittle that. Putting it on blast everyday is so incredibly annoying, though. I lived long distance for over a year. I only saw Derick 4 times in 15 months. Not to mention it cost me about $1000 just to be able to see him each time.
Moral of my story: before you complain everyday to the entire world about your problem, think about how maybe it isn't as bad as you think it is. Others have definitely been through harder times and made it out.

P.S. I'm feeling very anti privileged-white-American lately.

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Surprising Relationship Builder

Derick and I have only been married for just over 9 months. We are definitely still learning how to do this whole marriage thing.

We do a lot to try to build our relationship. Date nights is a huge one for us. Especially because we still live with my parents.

Last week we went to dinner and a movie, typical but always fun. We went to see The Jungle Book. (LOVED it, if you haven't seen it yet, GO!) We got so much more out of that date than I could have ever expected.

Derick and I grew up in VERY different worlds. I grew up in an upper middle class family in America, he grew up in a neighborhood that didn't even have paved roads until just a few years ago in the Caribbean. There definitely is not a lot we have to relate to each other when it comes to our childhoods.

But, while watching this movie, it was like we were both 6 watching the original cartoon. We were singing along to the songs, predicting what scene was going to come up next, and laughing at the added lines Baloo said. We connected in a way he had never connected before.

Marriage isn't easy, it is a lot of work. You have to actively put in the time to make sure you are both growing together. That is why I loved this experience, it was by accident. We went out to just spend time as a couple and be together. A movie isn't always the best way to enhance a relationship, but we both love movies. However, this movie did bring us closer together in a way I will be forever grateful. I got to a bit of child-Derick, which isn't always the easiest to see now that we are so far from the world he grew up in.

We will DEFINITELY be going to see The Legend of Tarzan.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Confession

I have now completed my second year of teaching. My first year was rough, as to be expected. I was in a city I didn't know, far from friends and family. I didn't know anyone I worked with and I wasn't super confident in the first grade curriculum. Even though I jumped at the chance to come back to Utah to be closer to friends and family, I grew to love the other first grade teachers. I became very close with another first year teacher, and we worked together on almost everything. The other teachers slowly brought us both under their wings and we even went out together a few times to blow off steam after school. One of the hardest things about working in Nevada was the lack of supplies available to me. On top of that I was working at a school in a very low income area, so most of the parents did not have the means to donate much. It was rough and I spent a lot of my own money. But I learned a lot and applied what I learned to this past year.

This past school year was a completely different experience. There were some things I knew I would get when I came back to Utah: friends and family near by, more involved parents, and more supplies readily available to me. One thing I did not get that I was positive I would have was a team of teachers to work with. It is the norm in Utah schools that teachers in the same school teaching the same grade level work together as a team. I was one of three kindergarten teachers at my school. The other two teachers were anything but welcoming to me. I was excluded from meetings and conversations, nothing was shared with me, no planning was ever done together, they would assign me to do things without telling me, and they were flat out rude to me.

It was such a trying year.

I am so grateful for my sweet husband who would let me talk through my daily trials and would build me up when I was feeling so low.

I was also so fortunate to have a wonderful class. They were sweet and worked hard. I did not have to do much reteaching or reminding of rules and procedures. Lastly, I had a pretty steady class, not a lot of move in a move outs.

My real saving grace this year, though - the other teachers at the school. I worked with third and fourth grade in the afternoons everyday. They were so kind and made me feel like part of their team. Everything I expected to get from my own team, but didn't get, I got from those other teachers.

My husband always says to me, "If you love your job 4 out of 5 days a week, you are doing the right job." Without those other teachers, I don't know if I could have said that I loved my job 4 out of 5 days a week. I love kids, and I love teaching. But without a supporting team surrounding me, it just wasn't enough. Every interaction with the other kinder teachers left me in a more and more negative place.

I am moving schools again for the next school year. I have already met my new grade level team, what a breath of fresh air! They are so warm and inviting! We are all already friends on Facebook after only meeting a few times.

I am very optimistic going into this new school year, and can't wait for all the opportunities to come!

Monday, April 14, 2014

I Love Adoption

I am doing adoption presentations again! I have missed them since I couldn't do any while student teaching. Retelling my story is so fun for me and I love looking at these old, and some new, pictures and remembering how far this journey has come!
19 and pregnant

One week old newborn

My first birthday after Trae was born

Trae's first birthday one week later

All the hats I've made for him

All the cuddles

And the many, MANY head buts

The kisses

The adventures

And now his new brother

It has been a crazy, fun, awesome three and half years. I can't wait to see what comes next!

Monday, January 20, 2014

A Goal

As many people know, I am the period owner of a Fitbit. I love this little guy. It gets me to move more just about any other motivation. I got my stats from last year and I walked over 840 miles last year. I have decided that this year I am going to try to hit 1000 miles this year. I did the math, and that is about 2.7 miles a day. As of right now, I'm roughly 22 miles behind schedule. I've been a little lazy so far this year.

Luckily, it's a leap year so I have one woke extra day to try to get there.

Here's to making this year more productive than the last!

Monday, January 6, 2014

Curiouser and curiouser

I do not understand boys.

Last night this boy I had been texting basically non stop all day keeps hinting he wants me to invite him over. I had been cleaning all day and changing my room up so I didn't shower, which may me weary of asking him to come over. Finally, at 1:30 am I do invite him over because I was working on a hat and I just wanted to finish it. He comes over and he sit and talk. I'm sorry, when I invite you over after midnight I expect to cuddle. Not sit near each other and chat. That is a daylight activity.

He really wanted to come over to talk for an hour and a half? I mean, we had good conversations, but I can talk and cuddle and the same time.

Here's that hat. I love it. Took barely over 2 hours to make.

Friday, January 3, 2014

So cute. So messy.

I bought myself a brand new nail polish while shopping today. It was a shimmery navy blue.

Gorgeous.

I get home and open all the things I got and put them away.

Picked up the nail polish.

Immediately dropped it on the tile in my bathroom.

Shattered.

Nail polish everywhere.

Apparently it was pretty good stuff.

It's not coming off my hands.


Thursday, January 2, 2014

And Through the Woods

I have started another blog called andthroughthewoodscrochet.blogspot.com to sell my hats. I am extremely nervous about either it being no good or that it will consume my already busy life. But I am also very excited about it.


I have to say, it is much better designed blog than this one was. I decided to do some 2014 sprucing of this old, outdated thing! It's simple, but clean. Which is what I wanted. Maybe I'll be learning more about how to jazz up blogs throughout the year and it will be awesome! But for now, this works.andthroughthewoodscrochet.blogspot.com

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

National Resolution Day

Happy New Year! Today is a day to look back on the past year; remember some of the sad moment, relish in the good ones. I'm not doing a "Top Ten of the Past Year" or a bunch of pictures from my favorite moments. I am only writing.

This year I have decided I am not making resolutions like I usually do. People make a list of goals for the upcoming year, but typically do little to achieve them. Then, at the end of the year, feel bad about not working harder so they vow to work even harder the next year. This is a vicious cycle that I am stopping for myself today.

This year for me, lack of a better word, resolution I am vowing to have a better year than last. The past four years have been rough for me. I usually just put on strong face for everyone else, then break down once I'm alone. This year I'm not doing that. I am going let people know how I feel and not let everything tumble down on top of me.

The future already looks much brighter. This year I will be graduating college! (A day I thought may never come with some of the obstacles I've had.) With graduating college the world will be my oyster, and I shall treat it as such. I will truly have the opportunity to put myself first, something I struggle with a lot. With the opportunity I will be able to decide what it is a really want. Do I want to stay in the area I grew up in? Do I want to move to Salt Lake like I've been telling myself? Do I need to stay close to Trae? Do I need to be close to my family? Would leaving Utah really be the best option for me? I don't know the answers to these questions yet. But I will.

This is my New Years Resolution: This year I am going to start living my life for me.

Monday, December 2, 2013

My Trae

A little over a month ago Dani was sweet enough to take some pictures of me and Trae. They turned out so adorable! She truly is amazing.
I'm so busy with school I have had no time to blog, but here are a few of my favorite pictures. I think these clearly show our wonderful, unique relationship.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

I don't know about you, but I'm not longer 22

That's right, I am 23 today.

It wasn't exactly the birthday weekend I was supposed to have. But I did have a blast in all my celebrating!

To start off my birthday celebrations I went to Cornbelly's with Dani and Trae.


We had so much fun!


I'm so glad I got to have a fun day with my favorite boy in the world!

I got a few awesome presents, too.



Even though the awesome day I was supposed to have never happened, I still had a pretty good birthday. Thanks to my wonderful friends and family.

Here's to making this year better than the last!

Saturday, July 13, 2013

It's Like Magic!

Yes, I am watching Harry Potter. But this is not about that.
I have been taking a Photoshop class this summer. The first couple of classes didn't leave me with much  confidence in the class. It was a lot of just basic computer knowledge, which I already have. I am by far the youngest one in the class. So I would start looking at the manuel and getting ahead or trying other things while he spent more time explaining how to "Select All" and "Copy" items.
But in class last week we learned how to "Clone" part of a picture. Cloning is the tool you use to get rid of a blemish on someone's face, a shadow on a shoulder, or an entire person if you need to. That is what I did. I took 8 people out of my picture, and their reflections. It took some time, but the picture looks awesome now! I love that I can do something this cool!

Before

After

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Marathon

Okay, this is NOT what it sounds like.
Maybe someday I will run a marathon.
Not anytime soon though.
I am not a runner.

I AM, however, engaging in a dual marathon. A Harry Potter Marathon and a Blogging Marathon. I need to finish my posts about my Pinterest adventures, and a Harry Potter Marathon gives me the perfect excuse to get all my pictures and experiences down.

Pin #1

I thought it was still very cute. It took FOREVER and I did not do nearly as many as she did. If I had a friend help me it would be much more worth it. And if my hair were slightly longer. I may try again toward the end of August and see what I think.

Pin #2

Honestly, I don't like it. It made my makeup routine take longer and it made my eyeshadow look more cakey. It is hard to tell in the picture, but not worth it. I won't be doing this again. Deleted from my Pinterest.

Pin #3

Waste of money. It did not dry my hair any more than it already was and it is a NIGHTMARE to get hair out of the brush. It's harder to brush through your hair with and a better idea than it actually is. Boo. Also, the website the pin is connected to no longer exists. Shocker.

Pin #4

Love this! They are adorable and I will be keeping the liners in mason jars forever I believe.

Pin #5

When I bought this scarf I was originally planning on doing the top right style form the pin. But then my hair was CRAZY greasy and I was running too late to take a shower. Well I love this. I want to try more from the pin. I got loads of compliments and it is just fun and different.

Pin #6

This is fun. The picture is awful, but I got lots of compliments on how fun and interesting my hair was. It is really easy, I wasn't even in front of a mirror when I did it. I do think it would be more adorable if I had bangs, but I am not cutting them just so one hair style will look better.

Well there you have it. These are what I have tried out so far this summer. Not as much as I had hoped, but I'm enjoying doing some of my pins! I will try to be more on top of things and do more. But I don't use my laptop often and this is not something I can do with just my phone.

Thank you Harry Potter, for giving me this opportunity to finish up what I have needed to do for quite some time now.

See you soon!

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Super Human

I set this pool up today. I set it up. No help other than my nephews bringing me the pieces. That is an 18 foot pool. I may be a superhero.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Eyelash extensions!

While I was in Hawaii (I'll try to get more pictures up here) my girlfriends have me eyelash extensions. Aren't they just gorgeous?! Also, I love the low maintenance of not putting on mascara anymore.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

100 Days of Pinterest

Okay, give or take.

Throughout the summer I am going to try out Pins from my Pinterest.
This will help me to actually do the things I pin, as well as find out if they really do work like they say they do. I will do my best to do one a day. But this is no guarantee of ANY KIND.
I will try out things from crafts to hairstyles to recipes to products.

Should be lots of fun!

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Preschool Portions, a Horse, and Some Rainbows

DISCLAIMER: I wrote this forever ago on my phone and kind of forgot about it. When I write a post on my phone it just puts all the pictures at the bottom instead of in the exact place I want it. I know, rude! So I left it as a draft and here we are over a month later. Oh well, here you go!

My phone is very popular with the nursery. So I turned on the camera. Lots of cute little eyes.


A sweet mom with two adorable kids made the picture then have us some beautiful nail polish. Yes, they both now get special treatment.


While driving from my preschool to do my field I saw this: a horse all saddled up and ready to go. There is no trailer in sight. How did it get there? Did someone ride this horse down the road? And if so, why did I not leave work earlier to see that?!


It was so warm that I busted my Rainbow sandals out for the first time this year. Hooray for spring!